Marry me~

i first heard this song from one of the wedding videos i got a chance to watch during my free time. I fell in love to it right away.



now, this song is added to my wedding songs list! :)

i'm getting there..

yes.. i'm getting there. getting better. getting back to sanity. and i am happy about that.
all it takes is FAITH. yes friends, faith in our Lord.
let me share with you what happened.

when i posted my last blog entry. i really never knew where to go and who to turn to.
my anxiety is reaching its peak and i literally felt that i was going crazy!
i went to the doctor to check what's up with me. but before that, i prayed. prayed. and prayed.
i told God that whatever the doctor would tell me would be His message to me.
i held on to that. when i was already inside the clinic, face to face with the doctor, i told him what i feel about myself. the doctor's smile actually comforted me and shomehow decreased my anxiety.
After the doctor checked me, he found nothing wrong except with muscle tightness on one side of my neck.
he gave me medications and i can really tell that he was confident about his evaluation.

On that very moment, as i walked out from the doctor's office, i felt vindicated.
i remembered what i told God earlier, that whatever the doctor's gonna tell me, that will be His message to me. I held on to that and I believed that. I believed that God told me that there's nothing wrong and that there's nothing to be worried about. Again, I held on to that and still holding on to that and keep believing on that.  God is faithful to His promises. Until now  i can say that peace already settled on me with God's grace and through the guidance of the Holy Spirit.  I thank the Lord for this gift and I will forever be thankful  for that.

Father Saint Augustine is true to his words when he said, "My heart is restless, until it rests in You."
Yes God, my heart, my mind, my sould and my spirit are restless... until they rest in YOU.
Amen.

such a worrywart-scaredycat

i hate it! i just hate it.
i hate this feeling. i hate being scared... of everything.
of ever detail that is not known to me.
i hate the thought of being sick.
i hate the thought of being alone.
i hate the thought of losing someone that is so dear to me.
i hate them because they scares me. so much.
and this fear gets really debilitating now.
i don't know who and where to turn to.
helpless!

..i don't know what's up with me.
help.

anticipation

If only I could make the time run faster, I would. 
And I will be more than happier to do that just to see you again.
To hold your hands and see you smile is my delight.
To embrace you and feel your warmth is my joy.
To kiss you and be kissed by you is heaven.
Two long weeks I have to endure.
As you took my heart when you traveled.
Fourteen long days I will wait.
Patiently and still, 'til you come home.
Yes, I will wait for my heaven to come home.