such a worrywart-scaredycat

i hate it! i just hate it.
i hate this feeling. i hate being scared... of everything.
of ever detail that is not known to me.
i hate the thought of being sick.
i hate the thought of being alone.
i hate the thought of losing someone that is so dear to me.
i hate them because they scares me. so much.
and this fear gets really debilitating now.
i don't know who and where to turn to.
helpless!

..i don't know what's up with me.
help.